And again I over react for no reason at all. I made a much bigger deal out of something so small that didn’t even have to happen. And just like always I regret it immediately after I do it. I don’t mean to say those things and be so awful. It’s just so frustrating sometimes. But I would rather spend my whole entire life in complete frustration and get to talk to you everyday, then to have to live my life hoping that maybe tomorrow you will forgive me and love me again. It kills me knowing that I’m the one to hurt you and I know I did . I just miss you so much being sad about not seeing you all the time has started to get the best of me. Absolutely everything about you I miss. How we would laugh for no reason at all or how you would tickle me to steal my phone out of my pocket or pick me up just to hold me. Your perfect eyes and even though you never know what to say, you still make me the happiest girl in the world. The nights we would cuddle until I fell asleep I just want one more. And even if I did get one more I would still want one more after that. Because I love you with all my heart I can’t stand the thought if you hating me. Or even worse you wanting to be with someone else I don’t think I could handle that. I just want to be the only girl for you. And that’s not fair either I should let you be with someone else but I can’t let you go you are perfect for me in every single way even though we can’t be together and I don’t get to hear your voice every day and love my life I would much rather live my life knowing that I had the best summer I could ask for with the most amazing boy in the world besides all the secrets and sneaking around being with you it was perfect being all yours was more then I could ever ask for from anyone else. I could never stay mad at you for longer then a day because I’m more scared that I’m going to loose you then anything. And this is really long and I know you probably don’t care because why would you I was so awful to you. But like I said I over reacted and I regret it with everything that I am. I need you more then anything and all I an do is hope that you don’t hate me. And im really sorry i had to do this but. I couldn’t go to sleep before i did. Because I am still 100% in love with you.